Failure to Thrive - Volume One (2002​-​2007)

by The Disgruntled Sherpa Project

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Silver Spoon 03:29
She was born with a silver spoon in her mouth her mother said that when she's grown She would find herself a prince and he would put her on a thrown And her daddy called her princess too But you can call a shack a castle for the good that it will do And they bought her silks, but skipped the rent They faced evictions but the money's always spent They kept her safe and they kept her clean Figured if they raised her right she would grow in to a queen When daddy died it really hurt They lost all his income and had to put him in the dirt And her mourning dress was very cute It cost more than the deposit on daddy's rented suit Born with a Silver spoon in her mouth She was born with a silver spoon in her mouth And she scowled at all the boys she met To let them know that she was something they could never get It worked at first it always does Until the day the scowl became part of who she was She laughed at first but shrugged instead Laughter couldn't please her like the crown upon her head At 49 she began to doubt She told her mother she didn't think the fairy tale was working out And her mother said, "Your dad's to blame If he made us more things would never be the same And the props we bought weren't good enough But you almost pulled it off because you're made of better stuff
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I put a flower in a box that I knew you would find And a note for you to read We don't have much time I want you to head west I'll let you know where I'll be And if the riots aren't too bad You can come and see me The brakes are gone and I cannot steer Staring straight at Van Gogh's Ear Swimming in your pools of gold You don't do anything your told Do you believe in Santa Claus You have no idea how much this all cost The gun is yours and the knife is mine I'll meet you at the home of Larry Fine See you on Saint Patrick's Day Light a Candle, make me a saint So, Happy Fourth of July I'll sing you Zeno's Lullaby Those three guys in the back They're drunker that Darthmouth boys Get them out of here right now I'm too old for their noise There's a poison in your veins he ripped rippled the railing from the wall Frozen peas on a swollen foot He can't walk he's passed out in the hall The brakes are gone and I cannot steer Staring straight at Van Gogh's Ear Swimming in your pools of gold You don't do anything your told Do you believe in Santa Claus You have no idea how much this all cost The gun is yours and the knife is mine I'll meet you at the home of Larry Fine See you on Saint Patrick's Day Light a Candle, make me a saint So, Happy Fourth of July I'll sing you Zeno's Lullaby Now you're down on your knees Choking on chocolate and cheese Gas cap's locked, the tank empty And you're adrift at sea So on a dark stormy night You search for some signs of life Now you're back down on your knees Choking on your disease The brakes are gone and I cannot steer Staring straight at Van Gogh's Ear Swimming in your pools of gold You don't do anything your told Do you believe in Santa Claus You have no idea how much this all cost The gun is yours and the knife is mine I'll meet you at the home of Larry Fine See you on Saint Patrick's Day Light a Candle, make me a saint So, Happy Fourth of July I'll sing you Zeno's Lullaby
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Sometimes people leave And sometimes the glass can't breathe And oh so many things just fade away And glass can't touch your soul no not today Sometimes you've got to bleed And somethings you must believe And everybody dies that's just the way And I can't touch your soul no not today And there is no such thing as fate You have got to learn how to hate So, see you Mrs. Tree You weren't made for me I watch you on my TV Watch you as you leave the heatwave has made TV That's alright, you're here with me And somethings you can tell Just by your shoes And you don't always call With the greatest news And you saw all these things I just can't see So I'll believe in God When He believes in me.
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As long as I got my guitar I don't care you don't care As long as I got my mind I don't mind you're not there Cause at night there are time I lay there in my bed Alone with my thoughts that swirl in my head I try to walk with my head held high and a glint in my eye I try to compete on my own two feet make myself feel complete But you you broke me down drug me around like I was a clown My little snake with style drowning in her own bile My little queen of denial As long as I know I can I don't care that you won't As long as I know I care I don't care you don't Cause at night there are times I think of what I lack All alone I stare straight up into the black I try to walk with my head held high and a glint in my eye I try to compete on my own two feet make myself feel complete But you you broke me down drug me around like I was a clown My little snake with style drowning in her own bile My little queen of denial
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What were you thinking When the cop asked you to drop With the Nitrous in your hand And the hash in your pocket Did you think they'd let you walk After slapping them in the face Now you're down on your hands and knees And they're smacking you out a taste Didn't think it would be like this That's what you said Well, brother it's like this And they're beating you to death Came up on us With a smile from ear to ear Sticking it to the man Showing no fear But that all seems to turn And you got your lesson learned Pepper sprayed in your face As your eyes began to burn Didn't think it would be like this That's what you said Well, brother it's like this And they're beating you to death I'm not one for Police Brutality But watching your beating was Entertaining to me
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I'm going nowhere with my life Everyday the same struggle and strife And got no ambition to go anywhere I'm losing my mind and i just don't care I'm going nowhere with my wife Used to be nice but now all we do is fight She's always complains about things I can't control I'm slipping away and I'm growing so cold All these strange things I see Are reminders it ain't easy being me All these bad things I find Bring me closer to losing my mind And I'm just looking for God in the strangest places I'm just looking for someone in the strangest places I'm going nowhere in my head Beginning to believe I'd be better off dead Ain't got no compassion and I'm passionless I just can't seem to find a reason for all of this All these strange things I see Are reminders it ain't easy being me All these bad things I find Bring me closer to losing my mind And I'm just looking for God in the strangest places I'm just looking for someone in the strangest places
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It's been over for a long time but still I feel the same My life still moves on but I'll never be the same Like I was with you Even though you're gone I still feel you here And I wish youI could hold you near These feeling must change Life must go on but I won't forget your name Gazing at the stars realizing their worth Thinking of heaven but I'm here on earth And you're not here with me My life was shattered when you left me And I wish it didn't end this way But that's how it is That's how it goes That's all I have to say to you All I have to say Don't feel blue That's all I have to say
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Trust means nothing to you. Hope is all I have We're all caught up in our lies We're all just trying to survive In a world full of tears I've tried to disappear In a candy store with a dime In a queue most of the time I walk in at 6 AM I remember what you said I hope you didn't mean What is in my head Returning to the scene Chalk marked my heart on the floor We all deserve much more You're way too young to doing this I'm far far too old to stop I'm going without you I'm going on and on You're way too young to doing this I'm far far too old to stop
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Goodnight Lucy Sue what them drugs done to you it's hard to tell the good stuff from the bad And it's a real sin kid about all them things you did But you were always the cutest I ever had And hello Razor Ray Ain't you got nothing to say I've been waiting here for you for so long When I think back to all those things you lack It's hard to tell exactly where it all went wrong May all the souls in Christendom curse you when you leave May all the souls in Christendom curse you when you leave Hello my best friend its great to see you once again Can I kiss you in the front seat of my car And it will break my heart when we both have to part Cause where there's surgery there is a scar Pick your cards up Mark did you think it was just a lark Or are you beginning to feel you may be cursed? Just where are you, dear old Saint Jude Why make things better when you know they could worse May all the souls in Christendom curse you when you leave May all the souls in Christendom curse you when you leave Hey there baby Jesus won't you smile just once on me I'm having trouble getting through my days And I don't understand why things slip through my hands Eventually I'll have to change my ways May all the souls in Christendom curse me when I leave May all the souls in Christendom curse me when I leave I know that's borderline BlasphemyMay all the souls in Christendom curse me when I leave
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On a clear I can almost see exactly where I left you standing alone At the bus stop with your hands in your pockets A smirk on your Sunglasses in your hair Can someone just tell me at least How a Southwest boy ends up in the Northeast? Are you safe or do you feel lonely Do the same little things still make you happy Have you found someone to cheer you up when you're sad Someone to tell you that things aren't so bad Do you still skip through the fields? Are you still chasing your dreams? You never write and I never call I don't miss you, I'm just curious is all. Can someone just tell me at least How a Southwest boy ends up in the Northeast?
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Yo ho ho and blow the man down You and me sweetheart we're leaving this town Grab us a bottle of whatever you please Us two old salts are hitting the seas Knife wielding monkeys are waiting for us Got Furious George and his rival named Gus In this life I have no wife but the ocean is married to me There's nothing like a monkey knife fight at sea Salt air in our lungs knives in the monkeys hands Those people don't know what they're missing on land Got fifty bucks on my main man George There's nobody who can beat on the SS Word Forge On dry land they don't understand that there's nothing left for me There's nothing like a monkey knife fight at sea Georgie stabbed Gus right through the heart I count my money as he bleeds There's nothing like a monkey knife fight at sea You and me babe we have it made with these monkeys and their blades There's nothing like a monkey knife fight at sea
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I'm still awake as I shake off the sunrise Lay in bed with diseased head haunted by your eyes Where did they go, I'd like to know all your alibis I'm still awake it's all I can take haunted by your lies In such a condition in the fetal position on the floor It depends on the demons outside my door Your memory still it tests my will in my mind it bores But I got new friends and you can't hurt me anymore. A cure for these blues It just gets me through Softens my attitude Captain Quaalude All my friends dance in my head I'm feeling fine And I love the sound when I wash them down with some red wine No longer sad or feeling bad happy all the time And I laugh at you when you say its true, I've lost my mind A cure for these blues It just gets me through Softens my attitude Captain Quaalude
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Airport Road 03:34
Baseball diamonds cut Springtime has arrive By the skating rick It's great to be alive At the swing set I will kiss your lips Move my hands on down Rest them on your hips And the tennis courts The are always full And the girls who play Are so beautiful There's a park you know Just off Airport Road Let's breathe the air That's so very sweet Just hanging here It cannot be beat And I can't wait Til the summer's here We'll sit by our cars And drink warm beer There's a park you know Just off Airport Road I think we should go No need to take things slow So many times that I go there Forget my worries forget my cares Smiling faces are all I see As I dream of you and me Then I saw your mom Picking up trash Things getting thin Need to make some cash It was at the end of the runway And it was such A beautiful day
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Sitting in the Florida Keys Drinking my Malibu Bay Breeze Pauline Pfeiffer's tapping her foot on floor Jim Swanick's brother stope the bathroom door And Ernest Hemingway is drunk again He's insulting all my friends Making fun of my girlfriend's clothes He keeps it up I'm going to break his nose Walker Evans hiding his photographs He's afraid Batista will kill his ass Shot of whiskey and a tumbler of rum Nothing beats drinking in the sun Always do sober what you said you'd do drunk Then learn to keep your mouth shut punk Bartender another another Tequila please I just love it in the Keys And Ernest Hemingway is drunk again I think he's getting pretty fat Playing with his six toed cats Ernest Hemingway is drunk again
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You swore I'd always be by your side Promise that you made to me but you lied You stole there and smiled at me as I cired You swore that I'd no more Be the peace that I was searching for But there came a choice to make it wasn't always give and take Another song to sing Another story told Another promise broken Another lesson Learned A person lost Another bridge gets burned Another page gets turned But I guess I'll know better next time That day by the park I don't know Seeing you with someone else seemed so wrong I never did convince myself you were gone You swore that I'd no more Be the peace that I was searching for But there came a choice to make it wasn't always give and take Another song to sing Another story told Another promise broken Another lesson Learned A person lost Another bridge gets burned Another page gets turned But I guess I'll know better next time I try not to act like you were something I own I convinced myself to believe what you told me I feel like a fool for the lies that you sold me I'll know better next time I try to believe that I could be what you wanted And I convinced myself that I'm able to change Now I feel like a fool I'll know better next time Now only in a dream you're still mine Fading picture from a past I can't find You moved on while I got left behind
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Got up got dressed Splashed some water on my face Brushed my teeth Combed my hair Left the mess that' my place I don't know why I go on every day Left the house Got in the car Drove to work It's not too far Punched the clock Turned the system on Stared at the screen til I was gone I don't know why I go on everyday And I don't care why I go on in this way But some day I'm going to fly from this prison I'm in It's such a long time now I couldn't tell you how it's been But one day I'm going to make some changes Do all the things I said I'd do long ago I'm going to climb the highest mountain I can find It's a long way, but a boy can dream don't you know Came home Ate my meal Put the trash out by the door Brushed my teeth Combed my hair Lay my head down to snore I guess I know I go on everyday To grin and bear it it seems is the best way
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Monday starts at midnight and Dave says Japan is quite nice We know where to go, but we're still gonna take it slow It's a long time coming You can stop your running You're finally home Where you belong Rest your head In your own bed Can't remember life without you or the silly things we used to do Life is such a treat when you're left standing on your own two feet It's a long time coming You can stop your running You're finally home Where you belong Rest your head In your own bed And everybody is so happy you're here. Drunk off our ass and we're gonna make these good times last Hear the church bells chime and it's so good to be alive It's a long time coming You can stop your running You're finally home Where you belong Rest your head In your own bed And everybody is so happy you're here.
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In a Meadow 04:30
Sic semper tyranus Is what the man said Where were you when I needed you Where were you as I bled You left me standing as usual On the outside looking in But look at me that way I know where you've been And somewhere in a meadow There grows a rose Hidden away from everyone That's the way love goes You smiled so sweetly At the funeral home Some things in life are better When you're not alone The poison was a fluid As it usually is Always wanting something to happen And now it begins And somewhere in a meadow There grows a rose Hidden away from everyone That's the way life goes Every effort you made You felt your hands were tied Tried to get yourself clean But the lake was dry We all tried to reach you But you flew too high I beseeched you But you just slipped by I thought you were thirsty So I let you drink Don't you know we would do anything To bring you back from the brink So I just stare at my hands These useless tools Trying to drown out the chorus Of your conspiracy of fools And somewhere in a meadow There grows a rose Hidden away from everyone That's the way love goes.
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I once spent some time in a house down by the lake Trying to clear my mind trying to heal an ache Sitting on a bench i was staring into space See if I could find the memory of her face Confusion set in Mess I'm in Where to begin Guilt or sin And the world came crumbling down As I sat I closed my eyes and I saw was black You'd think I realize that she ain't coming back Watching from that bank all alone nothing around The wind brushed the tress but didn't make a sound Confusion set in Mess I'm in Where to begin Guilt or sin And the world came crumbling down I threw her faded picture into the lake so dark and cold Been over ten years now and I feel so Goddamn old Watching couldn't be more than one day All those memories came and went as the picture sank Spent my time Standing on that bank Searching for new life As it all sank Confusion set in Mess I'm in Where to begin Guilt or sin And the world came crumbling down
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Attila 04:05
I was drinking whiskey in a Philadelphia bar New Year's Eve 1998 While you were crying in a Transylvanian hotel Head in your hands and worried about your fate So, now brother get over the bordlerline And if you make it please settle in the hills You played a fair game and you beat the machine But beware because this machine kills I was swimming 100 feet from the shore A pretty girl watched me for awhile Her long blonde hair was flowing the breeze And beautiful angel with a wounded smile I see the laughter and the worry in your eyes From the deep south to east of Hungary As kindred spirits we struggled all along I just hope your ending can be happy Now its been about 15 years or so Our journey has ended and I hope you're doing well You're my hero that much I can say Cause I loved that girl more than words can ever tell. So, now brother get over the bordlerline And if you make it please settle in the hills You played a fair game and you beat the machine But beware because this machine kills
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Over in Wyoming a sweet little baby Loves to sing as his daddy plays guitar And he only sings along to the saddest songs He howls out a tune as blue as his eyes Up in Montana a grizzled old cowboy Herds his cattle under the big sky His fired brewed coffee that he drinks in the morning He stares into the flame and thinks of a love that's gone by Back home in Billings a sweet young lady Thinks of the cowboy out on the range A single salty teardrop rolls down her cheek Cause since he's gone things have not been the same Down in Nevada the outlaws are hiding From the lawmen who'll chase them to their graves Over by a bolder, the youngest lays wounded Calls out to the Lord for his soul to be saved They sing Hallelujah In an Abilene barroom A beauty named Margot kisses the lips of a boy not her own But come morning, they'll sweep out the ashes Because tonight they'll let their fires burn Back in Wyoming the baby lays sleeping As his father watches him snore Drinking his cold beer, he can't wait til morning For the baby to wake up and then they'll play some more They'll sing Hallelujah
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Road Kings 03:49
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Porching it up Compton style when a fat man picked a fight He said you can leave here with your drinks but you won't leave her with your life We were shocked when Tommy J. smashed the bottle of fatboy's head There was so much blood on the floor we were all sure he was dead And I don't know why revenge tastes so sweet But hurry up let's stomp him before this guy gets back on his feet So, we stumbled down 25th street to New Jersey Avenue Got a cab 20 bucks round trip that's the best you're gonna do The trip across the island was longer than it normally takes So we got out at Mr. D's to get us some cheesesteaks I don't know why salt air tastes so sweet But it doesn't really matter
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Water 03:44
Water I need you now Come home Stay with me somehow I don't know where we're going But I know that you'll be there someday I look familiar to your eyes But I'll fool you with my disguise someday Echo Can you hear me? In that place Where I long to be? I don't know where we're going But I know that you'll be there someday I look familiar to your eyes But I'll fool you with my disguise someday Water - Joe Boylan and George Wright
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Drinking Margaritas by the pool Been 16 months since I was in school And these are the best days of my life Sleeping all day I'm drinking all night Gonna break it down cause I want to look cool Women round here make you act a fool Got a little visit from the company They said to me son this is where you should be And these are the best days of my life Training all day I'm studying all night The things they're teaching me are really out of sight Your Uncle Sam keeps you safe at night And these are the best days of my life Killed a leftist rebel with his own knife The Washington jerks they are such tools We got the Contras to keep the Sandinistas cool Gonna funnel some guns to them through Iran Something's politicians just don't understand That these are the best days of your life Your Uncle Sam keeps you safe at night - Joe Boylan
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Afraid of Me 03:18
Look in your heart, tell me what do you see? Don't lie to yourself, I know that you'll find me..there So listen to me, and every word I say enough of the lies, and I'm tired of the games you play..now I'm asking what you're made of, let me see and what are you afraid of, are you afraid of me Are you afraid of me? Gave you all I had still it was not enough Got your poker face on but I'm calling your bluff So, listen to me and every word I say Enough of your lies and I'm tired of the games you play I'm asking what you're made of, let me see and what are you afraid of, are you afraid of me Are you afraid of me? Look in your heart, tell me what do you see? Don't lie to yourself, I know that you'll find me..there So listen to me, and every word I say enough of the lies, and I'm tired of the games you play..now I'm asking what you're made of, let me see and what are you afraid of, are you afraid of me Are you afraid of me? - Wayne Lee
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Nor'Easter 03:45
Can't seem to make her happy Can't seem to enjoy her smile Been a year now maybe more Who knows? Your faith's been washed on the shore You found peace but she's angry Party's going on and they can't see This charade and your smile You have no grace but man, you got style Twisting turning spinning round who knows? Maybe time you left town Everyone's gone for winter streets empty traffic light blinking red Abandoned boardwalk, empty beaches left alone with the thoughts in my head She's gone but the pain lingers You gonna play guitar with those broken fingers? There's a nor'easter off the coast Says she loves you but she gave up the ghost They don't laugh there no one cheers Haven't celebrated in years Beaten eyes that don't see Who knows? Just don't say you believe in me Broken vows and suicides and all those things she left unsaid Misdemeanors, vandalism, broken bottles nights full of dread Everyone's gone for winter streets empty traffic light blinking red Abandoned boardwalk, empty beaches left alone with the thoughts in my head - Walt Mamaluy and Joe Boylan
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There was this boy you see said, "God gave this one to me. He cheered me up with the snow, gave me a place to go." He's trying to lose himself all the time He's trying to get away but has too many steps to climb He's trying to hide away all his inner sores He says he's trying to quit but he keeps on riding that horse There was this girl I knew says I haven't got a clue There most be something out there Though I doubt it's really fair She's trying to find herself all the time At the cost of all the ones that she leaves behind She thinks the world out there can be saved She doesn't realize everyone's been bought and paid So she keeps on going ahead though there's really no place to go She's so full of faith she tunes into every show And here I am again Disappointment my old friend I thought we ended the curse But now the pain is much worse So, I'll put my faith in the one who may have the plan In a world of petulant children there stands a man Putting all of us on his back one day we'll be free And I have to believe he will lead us to victory. - Joe Boylan
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Volume one of he ultimate compilation of the highs and lows of The Disgruntled Sherpa Project. Covering the two Buddha Zen releases (Talltrees Fallen and Double Fisted Misery) through their first album recorded at The Music Box in Aston, PA.

This compilation contains for the first time ever downloadable and streamable tracks from the debut album TallTrees Fallen and it's follow up Double Fisted Misery. As well as the first time the songs from "Broken and Bruised" an EP that was originally only available for sale at the band's fall of 2006 shows is available in its entirety for streaming or download.

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Prolific and legendary Philadelphia indie band formed on South St in 2002. Known for an eclectic mix of music featured on 10 released full length albums.

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