Failure to Thrive - Volume One (2002​-​2007)

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Volume one of he ultimate compilation of the highs and lows of The Disgruntled Sherpa Project. Covering the two Buddha Zen releases (Talltrees Fallen and Double Fisted Misery) through their first album recorded at The Music Box in Aston, PA.

This compilation contains for the first time ever downloadable and streamable tracks from the debut album TallTrees Fallen and it's follow up Double Fisted Misery. As well as the first time the songs from "Broken and Bruised" an EP that was originally only available for sale at the band's fall of 2006 shows is available in its entirety for streaming or download.

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released November 27, 2019

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Prolific and legendary Philadelphia indie band formed on South St in 2002. Known for an eclectic mix of music featured on 10 released full length albums.

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Track Name: Silver Spoon
She was born with a silver spoon in her mouth

her mother said that when she's grown
She would find herself a prince and he would put her on a thrown
And her daddy called her princess too
But you can call a shack a castle for the good that it will do
And they bought her silks, but skipped the rent
They faced evictions but the money's always spent
They kept her safe and they kept her clean
Figured if they raised her right she would grow in to a queen
When daddy died it really hurt
They lost all his income and had to put him in the dirt
And her mourning dress was very cute
It cost more than the deposit on daddy's rented suit

Born with a Silver spoon in her mouth
She was born with a silver spoon in her mouth

And she scowled at all the boys she met
To let them know that she was something they could never get
It worked at first it always does
Until the day the scowl became part of who she was
She laughed at first but shrugged instead
Laughter couldn't please her like the crown upon her head
At 49 she began to doubt
She told her mother she didn't think the fairy tale was working out
And her mother said, "Your dad's to blame
If he made us more things would never be the same
And the props we bought weren't good enough
But you almost pulled it off because you're made of better stuff
Track Name: Zeno's Lullabye
I put a flower in a box
that I knew you would find
And a note for you to read
We don't have much time
I want you to head west
I'll let you know where I'll be
And if the riots aren't too bad
You can come and see me

The brakes are gone and I cannot steer
Staring straight at Van Gogh's Ear
Swimming in your pools of gold
You don't do anything your told
Do you believe in Santa Claus
You have no idea how much this all cost
The gun is yours and the knife is mine
I'll meet you at the home of Larry Fine
See you on Saint Patrick's Day
Light a Candle, make me a saint
So, Happy Fourth of July
I'll sing you Zeno's Lullaby

Those three guys in the back
They're drunker that Darthmouth boys
Get them out of here right now
I'm too old for their noise
There's a poison in your veins
he ripped rippled the railing from the wall
Frozen peas on a swollen foot
He can't walk he's passed out in the hall

The brakes are gone and I cannot steer
Staring straight at Van Gogh's Ear
Swimming in your pools of gold
You don't do anything your told
Do you believe in Santa Claus
You have no idea how much this all cost
The gun is yours and the knife is mine
I'll meet you at the home of Larry Fine
See you on Saint Patrick's Day
Light a Candle, make me a saint
So, Happy Fourth of July
I'll sing you Zeno's Lullaby

Now you're down on your knees
Choking on chocolate and cheese
Gas cap's locked, the tank empty
And you're adrift at sea
So on a dark stormy night
You search for some signs of life
Now you're back down on your knees
Choking on your disease

The brakes are gone and I cannot steer
Staring straight at Van Gogh's Ear
Swimming in your pools of gold
You don't do anything your told
Do you believe in Santa Claus
You have no idea how much this all cost
The gun is yours and the knife is mine
I'll meet you at the home of Larry Fine
See you on Saint Patrick's Day
Light a Candle, make me a saint
So, Happy Fourth of July
I'll sing you Zeno's Lullaby
Track Name: Dead Literature
Sometimes people leave
And sometimes the glass can't breathe
And oh so many things just fade away
And glass can't touch your soul no not today

Sometimes you've got to bleed
And somethings you must believe
And everybody dies that's just the way
And I can't touch your soul no not today

And there is no such thing as fate
You have got to learn how to hate
So, see you Mrs. Tree
You weren't made for me
I watch you on my TV
Watch you as you leave

the heatwave has made TV
That's alright, you're here with me
And somethings you can tell
Just by your shoes
And you don't always call
With the greatest news
And you saw all these things
I just can't see
So I'll believe in God
When He believes in me.
Track Name: Queen of Denial
As long as I got my guitar I don't care you don't care
As long as I got my mind I don't mind you're not there
Cause at night there are time I lay there in my bed
Alone with my thoughts that swirl in my head

I try to walk with my head held high and a glint in my eye
I try to compete on my own two feet make myself feel complete
But you you broke me down drug me around like I was a clown
My little snake with style drowning in her own bile My little queen of denial

As long as I know I can I don't care that you won't
As long as I know I care I don't care you don't
Cause at night there are times I think of what I lack
All alone I stare straight up into the black

I try to walk with my head held high and a glint in my eye
I try to compete on my own two feet make myself feel complete
But you you broke me down drug me around like I was a clown
My little snake with style drowning in her own bile My little queen of denial
Track Name: Didn't Think it Would Be Like This
What were you thinking
When the cop asked you to drop
With the Nitrous in your hand
And the hash in your pocket
Did you think they'd let you walk
After slapping them in the face
Now you're down on your hands and knees
And they're smacking you out a taste

Didn't think it would be like this
That's what you said
Well, brother it's like this
And they're beating you to death

Came up on us
With a smile from ear to ear
Sticking it to the man
Showing no fear
But that all seems to turn
And you got your lesson learned
Pepper sprayed in your face
As your eyes began to burn

Didn't think it would be like this
That's what you said
Well, brother it's like this
And they're beating you to death

I'm not one for Police Brutality
But watching your beating was
Entertaining to me
Track Name: Strangest Places
I'm going nowhere with my life
Everyday the same struggle and strife
And got no ambition to go anywhere
I'm losing my mind and i just don't care

I'm going nowhere with my wife
Used to be nice but now all we do is fight
She's always complains about things I can't control
I'm slipping away and I'm growing so cold

All these strange things I see
Are reminders it ain't easy being me
All these bad things I find
Bring me closer to losing my mind

And I'm just looking for God in the strangest places
I'm just looking for someone in the strangest places

I'm going nowhere in my head
Beginning to believe I'd be better off dead
Ain't got no compassion and I'm passionless
I just can't seem to find a reason for all of this

All these strange things I see
Are reminders it ain't easy being me
All these bad things I find
Bring me closer to losing my mind

And I'm just looking for God in the strangest places
I'm just looking for someone in the strangest places
Track Name: All I Have to Say
It's been over for a long time but still I feel the same
My life still moves on but I'll never be the same
Like I was with you

Even though you're gone
I still feel you here
And I wish youI could hold you near
These feeling must change
Life must go on but I won't forget your name

Gazing at the stars realizing their worth
Thinking of heaven but I'm here on earth
And you're not here with me

My life was shattered when you left me
And I wish it didn't end this way
But that's how it is
That's how it goes
That's all I have to say
to you
All I have to say
Don't feel blue
That's all I have to say
Track Name: Scene of the Crime
Trust means nothing to you.
Hope is all I have
We're all caught up in our lies
We're all just trying to survive

In a world full of tears
I've tried to disappear
In a candy store with a dime
In a queue most of the time

I walk in at 6 AM
I remember what you said
I hope you didn't mean
What is in my head

Returning to the scene
Chalk marked my heart on the floor
We all deserve much more

You're way too young to doing this
I'm far far too old to stop
I'm going without you
I'm going on and on

You're way too young to doing this
I'm far far too old to stop
Track Name: All Soul's Day
Goodnight Lucy Sue what them drugs done to you
it's hard to tell the good stuff from the bad
And it's a real sin kid about all them things you did
But you were always the cutest I ever had
And hello Razor Ray Ain't you got nothing to say
I've been waiting here for you for so long
When I think back to all those things you lack
It's hard to tell exactly where it all went wrong

May all the souls in Christendom curse you when you leave
May all the souls in Christendom curse you when you leave

Hello my best friend its great to see you once again
Can I kiss you in the front seat of my car
And it will break my heart when we both have to part
Cause where there's surgery there is a scar
Pick your cards up Mark did you think it was just a lark
Or are you beginning to feel you may be cursed?
Just where are you, dear old Saint Jude
Why make things better when you know they could worse

May all the souls in Christendom curse you when you leave
May all the souls in Christendom curse you when you leave

Hey there baby Jesus won't you smile just once on me
I'm having trouble getting through my days
And I don't understand why things slip through my hands
Eventually I'll have to change my ways

May all the souls in Christendom curse me when I leave
May all the souls in Christendom curse me when I leave
I know that's borderline BlasphemyMay all the souls in Christendom curse me when I leave
Track Name: On a Clear Day
On a clear I can almost see exactly where I left you standing alone
At the bus stop with your hands in your pockets
A smirk on your
Sunglasses in your hair
Can someone just tell me at least
How a Southwest boy ends up in the Northeast?

Are you safe or do you feel lonely
Do the same little things still make you happy
Have you found someone to cheer you up when you're sad
Someone to tell you that things aren't so bad
Do you still skip through the fields?
Are you still chasing your dreams?

You never write and I never call
I don't miss you, I'm just curious is all.
Can someone just tell me at least
How a Southwest boy ends up in the Northeast?
Track Name: Monkey Knife Fight at Sea
Yo ho ho and blow the man down
You and me sweetheart we're leaving this town
Grab us a bottle of whatever you please
Us two old salts are hitting the seas
Knife wielding monkeys are waiting for us
Got Furious George and his rival named Gus

In this life I have no wife but the ocean is married to me
There's nothing like a monkey knife fight at sea

Salt air in our lungs knives in the monkeys hands
Those people don't know what they're missing on land
Got fifty bucks on my main man George
There's nobody who can beat on the SS Word Forge

On dry land they don't understand that there's nothing left for me
There's nothing like a monkey knife fight at sea

Georgie stabbed Gus right through the heart I count my money as he bleeds
There's nothing like a monkey knife fight at sea
You and me babe we have it made with these monkeys and their blades
There's nothing like a monkey knife fight at sea
Track Name: Captain Quaalude
I'm still awake as I shake off the sunrise
Lay in bed with diseased head haunted by your eyes
Where did they go, I'd like to know all your alibis
I'm still awake it's all I can take haunted by your lies

In such a condition in the fetal position on the floor
It depends on the demons outside my door
Your memory still it tests my will in my mind it bores
But I got new friends and you can't hurt me anymore.

A cure for these blues
It just gets me through
Softens my attitude
Captain Quaalude

All my friends dance in my head I'm feeling fine
And I love the sound when I wash them down with some red wine
No longer sad or feeling bad happy all the time
And I laugh at you when you say its true, I've lost my mind

A cure for these blues
It just gets me through
Softens my attitude
Captain Quaalude
Track Name: Airport Road
Baseball diamonds cut
Springtime has arrive
By the skating rick
It's great to be alive
At the swing set
I will kiss your lips
Move my hands on down
Rest them on your hips
And the tennis courts
The are always full
And the girls who play
Are so beautiful

There's a park you know
Just off Airport Road

Let's breathe the air
That's so very sweet
Just hanging here
It cannot be beat
And I can't wait
Til the summer's here
We'll sit by our cars
And drink warm beer

There's a park you know
Just off Airport Road
I think we should go
No need to take things slow

So many times that I go there
Forget my worries forget my cares
Smiling faces are all I see
As I dream of you and me

Then I saw your mom
Picking up trash
Things getting thin
Need to make some cash
It was at the end of the runway
And it was such
A beautiful day
Track Name: Hemingway is Drunk
Sitting in the Florida Keys
Drinking my Malibu Bay Breeze
Pauline Pfeiffer's tapping her foot on floor
Jim Swanick's brother stope the bathroom door

And Ernest Hemingway is drunk again
He's insulting all my friends
Making fun of my girlfriend's clothes
He keeps it up I'm going to break his nose

Walker Evans hiding his photographs
He's afraid Batista will kill his ass
Shot of whiskey and a tumbler of rum
Nothing beats drinking in the sun

Always do sober what you said you'd do drunk
Then learn to keep your mouth shut punk
Bartender another another Tequila please
I just love it in the Keys

And Ernest Hemingway is drunk again
I think he's getting pretty fat
Playing with his six toed cats
Ernest Hemingway is drunk again
Track Name: Broken Promises
You swore I'd always be by your side
Promise that you made to me but you lied
You stole there and smiled at me as I cired

You swore that I'd no more
Be the peace that I was searching for
But there came a choice to make
it wasn't always give and take

Another song to sing
Another story told
Another promise broken
Another lesson Learned
A person lost
Another bridge gets burned
Another page gets turned

But I guess I'll know better next time

That day by the park I don't know
Seeing you with someone else seemed so wrong
I never did convince myself you were gone

You swore that I'd no more
Be the peace that I was searching for
But there came a choice to make
it wasn't always give and take

Another song to sing
Another story told
Another promise broken
Another lesson Learned
A person lost
Another bridge gets burned
Another page gets turned

But I guess I'll know better next time

I try not to act like you were something I own
I convinced myself to believe what you told me
I feel like a fool for the lies that you sold me
I'll know better next time
I try to believe that I could be what you wanted
And I convinced myself that I'm able to change
Now I feel like a fool
I'll know better next time

Now only in a dream you're still mine
Fading picture from a past I can't find
You moved on while I got left behind
Track Name: Grin and Bear It
Got up got dressed
Splashed some water on my face
Brushed my teeth
Combed my hair
Left the mess that' my place

I don't know why I go on every day

Left the house
Got in the car
Drove to work
It's not too far
Punched the clock
Turned the system on
Stared at the screen til I was gone
I don't know why I go on everyday
And I don't care why I go on in this way

But some day I'm going to fly from this prison I'm in
It's such a long time now I couldn't tell you how it's been
But one day I'm going to make some changes
Do all the things I said I'd do long ago
I'm going to climb the highest mountain I can find
It's a long way, but a boy can dream don't you know

Came home
Ate my meal
Put the trash out by the door
Brushed my teeth
Combed my hair
Lay my head down to snore
I guess I know I go on everyday
To grin and bear it it seems is the best way
Track Name: Long Time Coming
Monday starts at midnight and Dave says Japan is quite nice
We know where to go, but we're still gonna take it slow
It's a long time coming
You can stop your running
You're finally home
Where you belong
Rest your head
In your own bed

Can't remember life without you or the silly things we used to do
Life is such a treat when you're left standing on your own two feet
It's a long time coming
You can stop your running
You're finally home
Where you belong
Rest your head
In your own bed

And everybody is so happy you're here.

Drunk off our ass and we're gonna make these good times last
Hear the church bells chime and it's so good to be alive
It's a long time coming
You can stop your running
You're finally home
Where you belong
Rest your head
In your own bed

And everybody is so happy you're here.
Track Name: In a Meadow
Sic semper tyranus
Is what the man said
Where were you when I needed you
Where were you as I bled
You left me standing as usual
On the outside looking in
But look at me that way
I know where you've been

And somewhere in a meadow
There grows a rose
Hidden away from everyone
That's the way love goes

You smiled so sweetly
At the funeral home
Some things in life are better
When you're not alone
The poison was a fluid
As it usually is
Always wanting something to happen
And now it begins

And somewhere in a meadow
There grows a rose
Hidden away from everyone
That's the way life goes

Every effort you made
You felt your hands were tied
Tried to get yourself clean
But the lake was dry

We all tried to reach you
But you flew too high
I beseeched you
But you just slipped by
I thought you were thirsty
So I let you drink
Don't you know we would do anything
To bring you back from the brink
So I just stare at my hands
These useless tools
Trying to drown out the chorus
Of your conspiracy of fools
And somewhere in a meadow
There grows a rose
Hidden away from everyone
That's the way love goes.
Track Name: Crumbling Down
I once spent some time in a house down by the lake
Trying to clear my mind trying to heal an ache
Sitting on a bench i was staring into space
See if I could find the memory of her face

Confusion set in
Mess I'm in
Where to begin
Guilt or sin
And the world came crumbling down

As I sat I closed my eyes and I saw was black
You'd think I realize that she ain't coming back
Watching from that bank all alone nothing around
The wind brushed the tress but didn't make a sound

Confusion set in
Mess I'm in
Where to begin
Guilt or sin
And the world came crumbling down

I threw her faded picture into the lake so dark and cold
Been over ten years now and I feel so Goddamn old
Watching couldn't be more than one day
All those memories came and went as the picture sank

Spent my time
Standing on that bank
Searching for new life
As it all sank
Confusion set in
Mess I'm in
Where to begin
Guilt or sin
And the world came crumbling down
Track Name: Attila
I was drinking whiskey in a Philadelphia bar
New Year's Eve 1998
While you were crying in a Transylvanian hotel
Head in your hands and worried about your fate

So, now brother get over the bordlerline
And if you make it please settle in the hills
You played a fair game and you beat the machine
But beware because this machine kills

I was swimming 100 feet from the shore
A pretty girl watched me for awhile
Her long blonde hair was flowing the breeze
And beautiful angel with a wounded smile

I see the laughter and the worry in your eyes
From the deep south to east of Hungary
As kindred spirits we struggled all along
I just hope your ending can be happy

Now its been about 15 years or so
Our journey has ended and I hope you're doing well
You're my hero that much I can say
Cause I loved that girl more than words can ever tell.

So, now brother get over the bordlerline
And if you make it please settle in the hills
You played a fair game and you beat the machine
But beware because this machine kills
Track Name: Western Prayer
Over in Wyoming a sweet little baby
Loves to sing as his daddy plays guitar
And he only sings along to the saddest songs
He howls out a tune as blue as his eyes

Up in Montana a grizzled old cowboy
Herds his cattle under the big sky
His fired brewed coffee that he drinks in the morning
He stares into the flame and thinks of a love that's gone by

Back home in Billings a sweet young lady
Thinks of the cowboy out on the range
A single salty teardrop rolls down her cheek
Cause since he's gone things have not been the same

Down in Nevada the outlaws are hiding
From the lawmen who'll chase them to their graves
Over by a bolder, the youngest lays wounded
Calls out to the Lord for his soul to be saved

They sing Hallelujah

In an Abilene barroom
A beauty named Margot kisses the lips of a boy not her own
But come morning, they'll sweep out the ashes
Because tonight they'll let their fires burn

Back in Wyoming the baby lays sleeping
As his father watches him snore
Drinking his cold beer, he can't wait til morning
For the baby to wake up and then they'll play some more

They'll sing Hallelujah
Track Name: New Jersey Avenue
Porching it up Compton style when a fat man picked a fight
He said you can leave here with your drinks but you won't leave her with your life
We were shocked when Tommy J. smashed the bottle of fatboy's head
There was so much blood on the floor we were all sure he was dead

And I don't know why revenge tastes so sweet
But hurry up let's stomp him before this guy gets back on his feet

So, we stumbled down 25th street to New Jersey Avenue
Got a cab 20 bucks round trip that's the best you're gonna do
The trip across the island was longer than it normally takes
So we got out at Mr. D's to get us some cheesesteaks

I don't know why salt air tastes so sweet
But it doesn't really matter
Track Name: Water
Water
I need you now
Come home
Stay with me somehow
I don't know where we're going
But I know that you'll be there someday
I look familiar to your eyes
But I'll fool you with my disguise someday
Echo
Can you hear me?
In that place
Where I long to be?
I don't know where we're going
But I know that you'll be there someday
I look familiar to your eyes
But I'll fool you with my disguise someday
Water
- Joe Boylan and George Wright
Track Name: Spring Break: Central America
Drinking Margaritas by the pool
Been 16 months since I was in school
And these are the best days of my life
Sleeping all day I'm drinking all night
Gonna break it down cause I want to look cool
Women round here make you act a fool
Got a little visit from the company
They said to me son this is where you should be
And these are the best days of my life
Training all day I'm studying all night
The things they're teaching me are really out of sight
Your Uncle Sam keeps you safe at night
And these are the best days of my life
Killed a leftist rebel with his own knife
The Washington jerks they are such tools
We got the Contras to keep the Sandinistas cool
Gonna funnel some guns to them through Iran
Something's politicians just don't understand
That these are the best days of your life
Your Uncle Sam keeps you safe at night - Joe Boylan
Track Name: Afraid of Me
Look in your heart, tell me what do you see?
Don't lie to yourself, I know that you'll find me..there
So listen to me, and every word I say
enough of the lies, and I'm tired of the games you play..now
I'm asking what you're made of, let me see
and what are you afraid of, are you afraid of me
Are you afraid of me?
Gave you all I had still it was not enough
Got your poker face on but I'm calling your bluff
So, listen to me and every word I say
Enough of your lies and I'm tired of the games you play
I'm asking what you're made of, let me see
and what are you afraid of, are you afraid of me
Are you afraid of me?
Look in your heart, tell me what do you see?
Don't lie to yourself, I know that you'll find me..there
So listen to me, and every word I say
enough of the lies, and I'm tired of the games you play..now
I'm asking what you're made of, let me see
and what are you afraid of, are you afraid of me
Are you afraid of me?
- Wayne Lee
Track Name: Nor'Easter
Can't seem to make her happy
Can't seem to enjoy her smile
Been a year now maybe more Who knows?
Your faith's been washed on the shore
You found peace but she's angry
Party's going on and they can't see
This charade and your smile
You have no grace but man, you got style
Twisting turning spinning round who knows?
Maybe time you left town
Everyone's gone for winter streets empty traffic light blinking red
Abandoned boardwalk, empty beaches left alone with the thoughts in my head
She's gone but the pain lingers
You gonna play guitar with those broken fingers?
There's a nor'easter off the coast
Says she loves you but she gave up the ghost
They don't laugh there no one cheers
Haven't celebrated in years
Beaten eyes that don't see Who knows?
Just don't say you believe in me
Broken vows and suicides and all those things she left unsaid
Misdemeanors, vandalism, broken bottles nights full of dread
Everyone's gone for winter streets empty traffic light blinking red
Abandoned boardwalk, empty beaches left alone with the thoughts in my head
- Walt Mamaluy and Joe Boylan
Track Name: The Beautiful Losers
There was this boy you see
said, "God gave this one to me.
He cheered me up with the snow,
gave me a place to go."
He's trying to lose himself all the time
He's trying to get away but has too many steps to climb
He's trying to hide away all his inner sores
He says he's trying to quit but he keeps on riding that horse
There was this girl I knew
says I haven't got a clue
There most be something out there
Though I doubt it's really fair
She's trying to find herself all the time
At the cost of all the ones that she leaves behind
She thinks the world out there can be saved
She doesn't realize everyone's been bought and paid
So she keeps on going ahead though there's really no place to go
She's so full of faith she tunes into every show
And here I am again
Disappointment my old friend
I thought we ended the curse
But now the pain is much worse
So, I'll put my faith in the one who may have the plan
In a world of petulant children there stands a man
Putting all of us on his back one day we'll be free
And I have to believe he will lead us to victory.
- Joe Boylan

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